Just let go of your frustrations..

This is something that I have always wanted to come easily to me. I seem to get aggravated and sometimes for no apparent reason. It even become rage at times. I need to learn how to just let it go. I just don't think I was ever really taught how to do this. I'm not sure how you'd really go about just letting go. I have tried breathing, but sometimes I don't get the chance to be by myself long enough to breathe them away.

I'm hoping that things will change when we move. I will be closer to a really good friend. One that I should have never let go. But that is what I get for believing other people who did not have my best interest at heart. Trying to keep the peace only got me hurt more in the long run. I seem like such a fool for so many things that happened that year. I should have trusted my gut and let things fall where they were supposed to than try and lay a soft fluffy pillow under them to protect someone other than my self and my friendship. I have no idea why I do that. I always seem to push people away. The ones that I really want around. Steve is the only person that I have managed not push away. BUT, no more. I am going to keep myself from those who I know don't really want me around. It is fine that I do not fit in. I am tired of playing into a role that isn't for me. I am tired of trying to put the square peg into the round hole. I want to be ME. The loud, funny, caring, sexy, country woman that I am.