So, as of right now it is 4:24 A.M. and I am wide awake. It sucks. My days are consumed with doing stuff for the kids, MIL and helping Steve study. Along with those tasks comes contractions, which are getting more painful everyday. Now not only are they going into my groin, but in my back. Yeah. Back labor. What a joyous thing to have.
My shower is next weekend, thankfully! I am really excited about it. Just help remind me that we do not have much more time left. Tomorrow I will be 34 weeks pregnant and they aren't expecting me to make it to my due date. I don't think I will either. I just hope that I can make it past 36 weeks. I'm actually starting to get a little nervous. I want to know how the kids are going to react to having another baby around. I want to know what the baby looks like. I want to know how I am going to react to having another baby. I was so out of touch with Tiffany. I just don't want that to happen again. With Tiffany I honestly felt like someone was trying to horn in on my bonding experience. It took me so long to completely bond with her. With Johnathan, it only took a week. I just don't want to feel that way again. I was so depressed. I hate being depressed. It is very hard for me to get past depression. It is a very, very difficult feeling for me.
We did find out last week that we are adding another little girl to our bunch. We have decided to name her Jessica Grace. I thought that I was hoping more for a boy, but as soon as I found out that she was a little girl, my heart skipped a beat. I was so happy. After that, I didn't pay much attention to what the ultra sound tech was doing. Except when she would pas over my 2 ticklish spots at the bottom of my stomach. That was funny.
Anyways... I am going to try and sleep again. Anyone know some herbal tea that will help me sleep?
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