Finally

Mike has finally stopped his wonderful visit with me for the week. Thank God!! He was here for 4 painful days. I finally took enough Aleve for him to go away. We got our tax return yesterday. What does that mean you might ask??? That means I get to go out and get a JOB next week!! I finally get to help out with the bills and all of that good stuff. So, hopefully we will not be broke the day we get a paycheck anymore. Cherryl is going to watch Tiffany while John is in daycare that has a really good preschool program. I also got some cute new interview clothes AND a cool new Pink Razor, prepaid of course. So now I can chat with all of my bestest friends with out it costing me $.13 a minute!! Things should really be starting to look up!!!

I'm sorry I haven't called anyone...I really have not felt like being social. But, I am back to normal now!! LOL AND, I got the videos up on my myspace finally!!! So, go check them out!

See ya'll laters!

And, she's OFF!!

She's walking!!! My baby girl is walking!!! LOL and for some reason, I can't even load the videos!!!!

WOW

So, today was Tiffany's birthday. It is so hard to believe that my baby is now a year old. The party was a blast. My little sister and I got into an icing fight, my Dad cheated and held me. Tina came over and put a glob of icing right in my nose. So, she took it like a big girl when I put a big smiley face on her face with icing. Tiffany got so many babydolls, I think she is set for life!! She loves her new Tinkerbell blanket that Steve and I got for her. My dad got her a nice big swingset for Steve to put together. She got some clothes and my mom get her the cutest pair of Princess shoes. It was wonderful.

I thank everyone who came. Ya'll were so great. We are so blessed to have family and friends like all of you! I love you!

My turn to feel blah....

So, I felt pretty ok for most of the day. John went to visit the sperm donor and his father today. Tiffany screamed most of the day and took a few naps. Then John came home. And he's been perfectly fine. But, when the SD left John cried. I know that he is his father and that there is nothing I can do about that. I just wish that there was some way that someone else could be his father. Is it so bad to wish that? I mean, I want him to have a father that I don't want to hall off and hit or kill everytime I see him. One that I can actually get along with. One that i would be married to and not have to put my poor little boy through. I just wish that there would have been some way for me to have met Steve before I met the SD. We had some similar friends and we were in a lot of the same places....Just never at the right moment. I hate that I have to put my son through the same crap that I went through when I was a child. It's the whole reason I tried to stay with the SD after he went to prison in the first place. Because I did not want to raise my child having to have 2 different families.

I just feel so down that I want to wrap myself in a ball and cry. And with Steve at work, it's hard for him to really comfort me. I think I am just gonna go to bed for now and wish that all of this would just go away.

Lots of stuff that is just too much!!

So, over the past few days I have been thrown up on for 2 days by Tiffany, aggrivated by Johnathan, and sat on by Jake. It sure has been eventful. But, never again will I go anywhere with just Tiffany and T!!! J/K It just seems like everytime T and I take her somewhere she either poops or throws up on me!! Also, my computer has decided once again to block out the option for me to comment on anyone's pages.

T, I pray that everything goes just the way you want it to tomorrow and that that awful pain of yours goes away soon.

Cas, just remember the "little people"!!!

I hope everyone else is ok. I am off to try and finish B-day stuff for Tiffany.

Oh and by the way

Everyone needs to add Steve as ffemtpearce@hotmail.com for his email addy. He is unable to see anyone's blogs...LOL

So, It's 2007

And here I am feeling just like I did when it was 2006. I am here. The kids and I are still sick, but we are finally starting to feel a little better. Tiffany has to have drops put in her eyes and John needs meds at night for his caugh. Other than that we are here. Steve is at work today, so I am home with the kids and my sleeping MIL.

I did get to go to Momma T's for a while this morning... That is until John went to the bathroom and decided to wipe his butt. He got shit all over his clothes, himself and the toilet... The many wonderful joys of being a mom. The whole reason for me to go over there was to give T the things that she needed to finish the cutest little dress that she is making for Tiffany. She is such a great Godmommy!!! It is going to be so cute! Yesterday she called and asked to pick up a few items from the store for her and since I was on my way to Humble, I didn't think twice about it. I get to her house and walk in the gate where I was promptly met by Lucy. I pet her and try to beat her to the door. Notice how I said TRY...LOL I'm telling her to get back while trying to get in the door. As soon as I get in I am met by Sadie, Jake and Thomas. Jake, of course, gets jealous when I pet another animal while giving attention to him and lets me know it. It is so funny to watch little me get surrounded by all of these animals who all get upset if I am not paying attention to them. I love being the center of attention!!

My step-father is going back to the hospital. He has had the Flu for a week and for the past 3 days has been laying in bed. Anytime he sits up he gets really dizzy and loses his breath. So, here I am twiddling my thumbs until I find out something. I will write when I find something out.

Oh, and I found out that today is someone's day... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Cas!!!!!