The Sperm Donor Strikes Again

Well, he called my mother's house looking for me once again. This time to say that he wants my address to have me served with papers. I can't beleive that I might have to let my poor little boy go see that pathetic excuse for a man, much less a father. He had a lawyer send some to me about 2 months ago. I went to a lawyer myself and he told me to just discard them. That they didn't mean anything since they weren't actually served to me by a constable and just sent in the mail. And, now here is the end of my battle. Unable to afford the lawyer, I am more than likely going to have to just give up. I am going to have to prepare to deal with my little boy crying when I pick him up because they have taken him into a back room when I get there. I guess they give him a toy to play with and then take it away. He was always so happy and ready to jump in the car. But, since I have to go inside to get his things, they take him back in to. And that is when they take him to the back room. I also have to prepare for the CPS calls again. They seem to think that I am an unfit mother and that I have no idea how to raise a child. I know that my family was not the greatest when I was growing up, but I know what to do most of the time. Hell, I have even wanted to become a Child Advocate a few times. Now I am going to have to let him go for a weekends at a time instead of just a few hours. Now Steve can't adopt him. I feel like I am putting him in more danger by just letting him go but, I it's like I have no choice in the matter. I wish we had moved to Nevada. Or hell, anywhere but where I am. I'm basically a sitting duck with a shotgun pointed right at me. I have never felt so helpless in my entire life. I thought things were going so great. I never thought that he would have the money to do this. And here he is with his parents backing him.

Well, off I go to bed...Hopefully I will get some sleep.

Babies and Magic

Well, Tiffany is 7 months old and refuses to crawl. She will get up on her hands and spin on her tummy. Then when she sees what she wants she will roll to it. It is so funny because when you put her on the floor she will "magically" be in a different position, but you will have no idea how she did it! And she is finally beginning to accept some baby food. She does NOT like any veggies with out a little salt and she still doesn't like some fruits. So different from JohnJohn. For all of you who don't know John, he is my human garbage disposal. He likes to eat everything in sight, even out of the garbage. Which he did over at T's many many times...LOL

I am glad to know that things can be forgiven. People just need to learn when to listen and when to speak (as a certain man who once had a mullet said). Learn how to let things go in one ear and out the other...Or in blog world, in one eye and out the other.

You're gonna pop my bubbles!

I can't believe how much my little boy has grown. Today we were outside blowin' bubbles with a bubble set that my mom bought for him. He had his own little bottle and I had mine. (I also had my mom's digital camera to catch those candid moments!) I blow some bubbles, so nice and steady. Then John starts to pop my pretty little bubbles. "You are gonna pop my bubbles," I told him. He looks at me and so sweetly says, "Sorry mommy. I sorry." I almost cried!!! He is getting so much better!

Update

Well, Tiffany is getting bigger and bigger. She rolls to her stomach, then lays her head on her arms and gives you the sweetest look! I am thinking of going back to work. I will miss her soooo much! And, John is talking so much better. He still says truck and fire truck funny but, other than that he's better. Of course he is still a little terror. Hopefully he will grow out of that soon.

I have recently found out that one of my best friends is pregnant. I am happy for her because she gets the baby she has always wanted, but I feel sad because it's not under the best of circumstances. Thank goodness she is considering moving to Florida to be close to Tonya. That way she will have some help without being criticized by her family. Her baby is going to be so beautiful.

I also got to see a picture of Tonya's little boy today. He is so handsome!!! I can't wait until I get to see him and Paris. Only in time though.

Well I'm off for now.

Just Stuff

So, I have now realized how much has actually happened this week.

I had started to watch a friend of mine's child on Tuesday (the anniversary of my dad's death). Boy was that a fun time. I watched him a full three days and then remembered why I didn't want to have my kids so close together in age. The little boy - actually he was not so little - was three years old. Well, needless to say, he and John did not get along. As long as I kept them seperate they were fine. They could not be in the same room for 5 minutes without fighting though. I think I pulled out more hair in those 3 days than I have ever watching any kids. I would have wathed all of the kids on the prairie together than watch him and John together again. And with them fighting so much, Tiff hardly got any sleep. Who, by the way, is getting her first 2 teeth in!

Well, off I go. I think Tiff might have something to say here, too.

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