Dreams...

How many dreams do people have that never get fulfilled? How many people really want them to take place? I know that most of mine already have been. I have a wonderful husband and my children. I have always wanted a happy family. I have never let anything get in my way of that either. But, what about those dreams that are reaccuring? The ones that you want to happen so badly. I love to make some of those dreams come true...I'm just that type of person. You may be scared to do it, but how will you know if you actually like it until you try?

Just sittin around

I hate not having anything to do. I can't wait to get a job. I wanna be a waitress somewhere. I found a 24 hour daycare for the kids...And not one that most of the workers speak Spanish. This is a nice lady at home. I hate being at my mom's too. Everyone old enough smokes and there are too many damn kids. Kids who get on my damn nerves. By the age of 6 you should already know not to freakin argue with your parents....You will NOT win. No matter how big of a fit you win. At least that's how it should be. With my sister it is a different case at times. Getting woke up at 5:30 in the fucking morning because her kids don't know how to fucking act is getting on my damn nerves. Oh well, I gotta put up with it!

Just Stuff

Well, I had to call an ambulance for my stepdad today. His blood pressure was up to 185/110. He's at Hermann now. Hopefully everything goes well. I would really hate to lose him. I like him so much. He is actually one of the only men that my mom has been with since my dad died that I like. My mom is upset about it, but she's hopeful, too. I pray that everything is fine. Steve has a wonderful job with Gaurdian EMS and they are putting him through Paramedic school. Which is awesome cause we will get completely paid back for it all. I thank God that he didn't stay at the other companies that he worked at. He's really happy with his job now so, I don't have to worry about anything. We didn't get to go to the Zoo like I wanted, but we will in a couple of weeks. Well, time for me to go and get some sleep...

The Zoo

I plan on taking John to the Zoo for the first time. I'm kinda scared to see how he is going to react. I don't know if he is going to love the animals or be annoyed and wine the whole time. I guess I really shouldn't worry about it...What kid doesn't like the zoo? He loves dogs. Tiffany is doing well. She's getting so big!! She can almost fit into 3-6 month clothes now and she's only 8 weeks. Steve has a great job with an EMS company and is about to get a second as a part-time job. The sperm donor is being an ass and has apparently found where I am. That's ok though, he's still not seeing John. Well, off I go...

Snowballing

I was sitting here reading someone's post and realized how much people always snowball the truth. And it is just to make other see what we want them to see. These blogs are meant for people to vent the truth and not care what others think. Yet, I see many just covering up what they have really felt and what they really mean to say. Why have a place like this and do that? I don't know...I just can't wait until I move away from everyone who is childish (including those in my family) and being with my true friends and family. I just hope that Steve never regrets it. I pray that it never drives a wedge between us because we are going to be so far away from half of our children. When we move, we can start with a new slate. Make new friends and continue and old friendship of mine...With my Tonya. See, we had our kids really close together. I had my son 2 days before she had her daughter and I had my daughter 6 weeks before she had her son. She got married a year before me though. Her and Amy have been my BFs since 9th grade. Maybe that's why they are the main ones that I trust. Well, Tiff is asleep now, only John left to go...But it doesn't seem like that is going to happen anytime soon and it is now 4 a.m.!!!

Late Nights...

Or early mornings? Kids have no perception of time. They don't care what time it is, day or night. When they want something, they have to have it right then. My 2 year old son decided that he didn't want to take a nap yesterday until 4 o'clock in the afternoon. When he did wake up, he was sick. So, Steve and I gave him some meds...Well that knocked him out. Then at 2 A.M. he decides that it is time to wake up and play. Then he's hungry because he didn't get to eat dinner (he wasn't hungry at that time). All the while, my 2 month old was awake and didn't want to be put down...I know I seem to have spoiled her already but, I always spoil my babies. Even John is spoiled. Some days he's a momma's boy and others he's a daddy's boy. Tiffany really doesn't know much of a difference right now. I love my kids though...